Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Cherish Every Minute

I know, I know, it's been a very long time again since I have posted. It hasn't been on purpose. Well actually, it sort of has. You see, I am 3 weeks away from my due date and Chris and I have decided that we are going to cherish every minute we have with Zoelle. So, because of that, I haven't been on here or much of anywhere else to post.

3 weeks!?! Can you believe it? It seems like just yesterday that I was posting on here that crazy picture of my pregnancy test. Now, I am just weeks away from meeting our second biological child. It makes me excited, scared, nervous, and sad. So many different emotions in meeting this little one. Mainly the sadness comes from no longer having it just Zoelle and I. I do not fear one bit loving this child as much as I do Zoelle. Instead, I just am sad that I will never have this time with "just us" ever again. I cherish it and will always look back on the fond memories we created in her first two years of life. What a special time it has been and still is!

The adoption front is again slow and making me feel depressed. Just the other night I was bawling to Chris saying, "It isn't going to happen. I just can't see it happening, especially with this economy.". My husband, who I must say again is a huge blessing, reminded me that God is bigger than all of that. He has the most perfect, most beautiful, little babe out there for us just waiting to join our family. It is just on His time, not ours. Wow! What a great reminder-one that I will probably have to keep saying to myself over and over until that precious little babe is in my arms at last. God recently lead me to this verse that helped calm me and give me peace to know He has a child for us.

“As surely as you live, my Lord, I am the woman who stood here beside you praying to the Lord. I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I have asked of him.”

1 Samuel 1:26,27

As far as grants go, no new news. This means that we probably did not receive the National Adoption Fund. However, that grant has no limits to how many times you can apply, so God is not finished yet there! It just means someone else needed it more than us at this time. The only other adoption grant news we have heard is that the Gift of Adoption grant has moved our application review date back to June. This is because they are short on funds, and are praying that by June they will have more to commit to us or others like us. Pray with us for that, would you?

To end this super long post (please forgive me for it, k?), I must post a picture of my little girl whom I am cherishing every minute with. :)


  1. Every time I see a pregnant lady I think of you. Since the wife of one of the other staff couples is also pregnant, well its often :-)

    Love the pic of Zoelle!!

  2. know, I remember feeling the exact same way just weeks before Monte came. I dont know if one would call it mourning or not, but its special one-on-one time with the child who introduced you to motherhood. Its a chapter closed, I guess. Enjoy every moment you have with her before baby comes! Not that it will be bad when the baby comes, not at all. :) But like I said, itll be a new chapter!

    I hope you get some sort of news on the adoption side of things. Waiting.....argh....never was very good at that.

    God bless!

  3. Thank you ladies. Rach-I'm honored you think of me every time you see a pregnant lady. ;) Hehe!

    Ana-I'm not patient either, pretty much at all. Waiting is so hard. Glad to know that I'm not the only one who went through the "mouring" time so to speak of have two instead of just one.


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