I am in a state of shock today. Yesterday I had a particularly hard day in regards to the adoption. However, I should probably back up and explain to you the decision we came to over the weekend.
Over the weekend, Chris and I had some time to talk about the adoption and if we want to move forward with it or not. Time and time again, we kept coming back to an adoption story that some friends of ours had in which they felt God calling them to adopt, but not take out any loans for it. God faithfully provided for them and today they have a beautiful little girl to demonstrate God's faithfulness. Essentially, we felt that God was reminding us that from the beginning He told us that He would provide and we had to keep trusting Him as He would be faithful to follow through with that promise. So, we wrote an e-mail to our social worker and told her that we do want to adopt and that we believe that God will be faithful to provide, so please distribute our profiles. Our social worker e-mailed us back yesterday and basically said that they can and will do that, but will not really "promote us" so to speak as we technically do not have the funds. Talk about another disappointment to us. I cried out to Chris and God yesterday...again. Oh, and Zoelle heard some of my crying too! :) Outside of those two, I only shared with my mom briefly about what happened. Thus, what happened today, shows me that God truly cares.
As a stay at home mom, getting the mail is the highlight of my day! Pathetic right? Well, it breaks up my day and is always fun to see what we got. Today, I was going through the mail and saw a check in there to us. I had no idea why or who would have sent it to us, so I opened it up. Inside was an anonymous gift given to us by someone who wants it to go towards our adoption expenses. There is no way anyone outside of my mom, husband, and Zoelle, that anyone could have known that yesterday I was crying out to God to show us where we are to go again. There is no way this particular person could have known when they sent this check that they were showing me that God cares. Pretty amazing, huh?
So, I just want to say thank you. First of all to God. Thank you for showing me you care and that you do not want us to give up, but you want us to continue to trust and follow you in this adoption journey. Secondly, thank you to whoever sent us this. I have no idea if you even read our blog, or if you even know us. All I know is that I am thankful that you were faithful to God in sending us that money. God knew that yes, we needed the money, but even more so, that I needed to see that He cared. Many blessings on you for allowing God to work in your life, and in return, ours.