Today is my birthday! I say that not because I want lots of "Happy Birthdays", but rather because it has me thinking about a very special "birth day" that one day (hopefully soon) I get to be a part of.
Since having Zoelle 18 months ago, the two birthdays I have celebrated have been so different for me. I understand and know now exactly what my mom went through on the day she gave birth. There was nothing more exciting, terrifying, painful, emotional, etc. for me then the day I gave birth to our precious Zoelle Grace. I'm sure my mother felt the same way when she had me. Which brings me to thinking again about our birth mom and the birth day she will one day experience.
No, we don't have a birth mom yet, or not one we know specifically. However, God knows who she is, and He has shown me the need to pray for her and today on my birthday, I think of her. What an absolute sacrifice it is for her. To go through the amazing, terrifying experience of birth only to look at that child and give him/her to their adoptive parents. The love I experienced for Zoelle upon birth was like nothing I have ever experienced before. She too, will experience that love, and because of that love, will give us her child to raise as our own. Seriously, is that not a direct show of God's love for us in giving His son to us to save us? Think what Mary must have felt as she laid Jesus into God's loving hands. It is the ultimate love sacrifice for your child, and I am grateful for whomever God has chosen to be our birth mom.
In the meantime, thank you to those of you who have facebooked me, e-mailed me, or managed to catch me and ask how I am feeling this pregnancy. Thanks to many of your prayers, I believe I am officially done with the "all day sickness". It lasted about 3 weeks shorter then it did with Zoelle. Praise God! Just last week, I felt the baby move for the very first time, and what a joy that is to me!
Chris and I also want to thank those of you who make it a point to ask us about the adoption. You have no idea how much that means to us. Many people avoid asking because they aren't sure what to say. However, to us, it is just like we are carrying this child. This child may be in our hearts instead of my tummy, and it may take longer then 9 months, but we still love to talk about the adoption!
We have heard back from both adoption grants places and currently both are just waiting to hear back from our references before moving forward. May I just ask for your prayers in that our references will respond quickly to their questions.
Love to you all, and enjoy this "birth day" with me in praying for our birth mom.